Beginning Again...

Well what can I say? I have not felt this way in a while, but now the familiar feeling of being single has returned. It is weird, but not necessarily bad. I don't think that I will be out looking for something like what I had soon, but that is not to say that it will never happen. I am so so so happy that thinigs are not weird, and that above all else friends will always be there. I have finally come to grips with my situation, can move on from the ending of the last few months. I am beginning again, and I can accept this as my reality. Time to man up and not dwell on this because you can't move forward if you are constantly holding back. It was something I will never forget, and a great lesson for me to learn by. I am beginning again...

A Good Run

Well a four month long relationship comes to an end...but it was not an angry departure. We still are really good friends, maybe even best friends. What makes it tough is that I feel so strongly about her, but in the end all I want is for her to be happy and this is what was best for both of us. I guess the reason that I am not completely devastated is because I know that she is finally happy, and honestly it kills me to know that I was holding her back from this. Would I still do anything for her? Absolutely! I can say that this was a learning experience for me, now I know how great love can be and I know that there is someone out there that feels the same way. She deserves to be happy, deserves the best and both of us decided that this was the way that we should go about it. I am relieved that at the very least I did not lose such a great friend. We all know how the old saying goes, "it is better to have love and lost than to never have loved at all." Agreed. Maybe down the road we can both be on the same page, and make something great from this...one can only hope. Our feelings for each other will never change, and for that I am grateful.....

A Post Valentines Day Tribute

Well wouldn't it figure that I could not actually post a blog on valentines day, but I have not forgotten about it! It is amazing how much better Valentines day is when you have someone special to celebrate it with! I must say that I had a wonderful day, eating good food and enjoying a movie...not to mention consuming some delicious Starbucks coffee! I am sad to see the day pass, but I feel like there are many more Valentines day memories to be made! What a magnificent day to express feelings and show someone just how much you care about them. I am a sap for this holiday, possibly due to the fact that I am a hopeless romantic. But in either case it was probably one of the best days that I have had this 2010 and it will stay in my mind forever. Unfortunately it is back to the same old real world stuff, which stinks but that is reality. Well here is to Valentines day, a great day for people in love and people who know that there is such a thing in this world. Without it there would be a great deal of emptiness, but it's a good thing it exists! Happy belated Valentines day!!!!!!

p.s.
Looked at an apartment to live in next year and I think that it would be an outstanding idea for a senior education major to live in one just so I get the experience of living in a situation like that, and plus it would be ample time to focus on my studies. Living with three other people will not be too much of a challenge for two are great friends, and the other is my girlfriend. Any thoughts or advice on this would be much appreciated!!!!!!

An Early Valentines Day Tribute

So tomorrow is the couples holiday, the day where you would do anything for your significant other, buy her flowers and candy, and just let her know that you love her and care for her (putting this into context of me being a guy). It comes to no surprise that girls all over the country are rejoicing this coveted holiday, and I can't say I can blame them! I think Valentines day is a great holiday, because it allows me the opportunity to think up that one romantic thing that I can do for her that will just show how much I care. Plus who can complain about getting candy? I try to think outside of the box when it comes to this holiday, for example, instead of buying a valentines day card at the store (im not putting it down because my girlfriend did this and I LOVED it!) I decided to write her a cute little note that I hid in a tin full of candy that I gave her. Now if there was one thing that I did wrong it was putting the candy in a tin that said "Happy Holidays" with a snow flake on it (perks of being a poor college kid). Of course the note has not been read so I need to somehow steer her in that direction. Again Valentines day is amazing, and I could not be luckier to spend it with someone so special!

No poems this time, just my totally happiness that such a great holiday is right around the corner!

Paper Life

I wanted to apologize to my girlfriend for all the posts that I have put on here previously. I realize that our business is exactly that, ours. My intentions were never to put her down or make her seem like a bad person because that is far from the truth. From now on I will post some of the works that I have written and that is it. Again, I apologize and I will not write about those things in the future.

This is a poem that I wrote my freshman year of college that I eventually decided to turn into a song. It has the potential to be a great one, and if I ever make it as a musician this will certainly be one of the songs that I will share with others. I wrote this song because I have seen many people go through relationships and attempted relationships where they have been manipulated and just plain tortured by someone that seemed to be just out of their grasp. This happened to me and alot of my friends in high school. I think that things like this still happen, but realizing it is the key to breaking away and being happy. Here is my song, I hope you all enjoy and let me know if you think it could be a winner, like I do!!!

A Paper Life

A life like paper torn into pieces
Fragments crashing down like hopes and dreams
No way to win when I'm not whole
A pain so real it tortures the soul

Why must you take my paper life
And fold it to fit your will?
Too close to the flame with my paper life
Burning my soul with looks that kill, my soul with looks that kill

Living lies and living blind without you
A paper life dissolves in your shallow waters
Pieces floating away of a broken heart
Nothing left but emptiness and sorrow

Why must you take my paper life
And fold it to fit your will?
Too close to the flame with my paper life
Burning my soul with looks that kill, my soul with looks that kill

Can't break the ties that bind you
You're life so false and my intentions pure
So similar, but the realization lost
A paper life is what we live today

Why must you take my paper life
And fold it to fit your will?
Too close to the flame with my paper life
Burning my soul with looks that kill, my soul with looks that kill...

I have been working on putting music to this, and I think this really has potential! Acoustic or rockin it out....hmmm have not decided yet. If only I could get enough stuff put together to play at springfest....that would be awesome! Well let me know what you guys think, and I'll work on coming up with music for it!

A New Journey

Ok here it is, my first blog. I thought that maybe it was time for me to write down some thoughts and feelings, maybe share some new things that I am doing/writing, and just to get myself out there (not that anyone really cares). So the first thing that I am going to share with you is a poem I wrote two years ago. It happened during my freshmen year of college which was a very dark and depressing time for me. Most of my writing at this time revolved around a certain girl, and the fact that I could not be with her tore me apart. Don't worry though because things have turned around for me, and I could not be happier!!! Ok so this poem is titled:

Life Without Love

Beauty in perfect form, a butterfly on the breeze
A hope that exists, for love is mysterious
Finding her, girl of my dreams, nothing but a tease
Praying for the best, expectations of the delirious
It's hard not to think what life would be like
Without true love, a hole, a divide
Tears that fall, escaping anguished eyes
Drowned in the abyss, a soul that has died
Spending life alone, without the tools to exceed
All hope extinguished, a chance thrown away
A desire so strong, companionship is all I need
Beauty so pure, which never ceases to vary
Feelings inside where all explanations are lost
Girl of my dreams, a blossoming tree in Spring
A leaf in Autumn, falling for her at all costs
A struggle for love, burning through my very being

So I hope you all enjoy, let me know what you think. I will post some more stuff when I get time.